I'm sitting here, in our guest room/library/storage room, I put the iPod on the christian station on pandora, and started looking for a book, I ended up just sitting here, looking out the window at the mountains, watching the water in the pond sparkle as the sun hit it, and just enjoying the beauty of the afternoon. So as I was sitting here, the song East to West, by Casting Crowns came on, and I started listening to the lyrics.
After a minute I started crying, and realizing how badly I need Jesus, every day. I don't know why the song touched me so much, It's one of my moms favorites, so she plays it a lot, and I hear it probably every day. But It got to the part where it was talking about how I'm not holding on to you, but you're holding on to me, and I was crying.
These lyrics are so so good.
Jesus can you show me just how far the east is from the west?
I can't bear to see the man I've been, come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
Cause you know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
I know you've washed me white
Turned my darkness into light
I need your peace to get me through
To get me through this night!
Can't live by what I feel
But by the truth your word reveals
I'm not holding on to you
But you're holding onto me
Now I'm sitting here, surrounded by boxes, (courtesy of Caleb, we're holding his stuff here while he's in the process of moving down here -yes!-) books, and extra blankets, and Jesus. And I finally, after so many weeks, feel peaceful about this summer, and feel peace about what I'm going to do. And peace in my relationship with someone, that's been a big challenge this year. God works in mysterious ways, I never listen to Pandora, and it's a random order, but he used that song, and I'm so thankful that he did.
~Hannah
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